Mein Kampf

Making Money from Passions

2009-09-06T02:58:00.003+08:00

Hello dear bloggers and viewers,

To make money online many people jump right in before they are properly prepared. You know that to be a rocket scientist, a doctor, a brick layer, a construction worker, an office worker, a teacher there are prerequisites, things you must learn, before you can be successful, you don't just jump right in unprepared.

The same applies to the Internet marketing industry even though there are unsavory people out there who'd have you believe it's a "Walk in the Park" and requires no more than the belief that you can just do it.

And I'll have to admit, it is a walk in the park compared to what you have to put up with in the working world punching a clock being a subordinate to someone who does not have your interests in mind, but there are still rules you have to follow and pitfalls you must avoid to actually make Internet marketing work for you.

Most people will not make a dime online and yet there are others who will make more in one month than most people make in a whole year. Why is that?

My answer begins with the age-old chicken or egg question, "what comes first the chicken or the egg"? Personally I vote for, well never mind, each argument you or I make comes back to the same old conclusion - I have no clue and I don't think many of us do either.

But one thing I do have a clue about and know for sure is that to make money online you must first have Passion for the company products and/or service of any Internet business from which you expect to make money.

Passion in this sense simply means that you've researched and like the company and products or services. It is then that you translate that like (or Passion) into the education, excitement and work that usually accompany Passion.

I will have to say that many online entrepreneurs are so good at what they do that they ignore passion because they can sell anything. But I'm concerned about those of you who are not so knowledgeable at working an online business successfully.

Now, I'm not trying to make anyone believe that Passion is the only thing necessary. Because to be successful you must also have a good website, good marketing, widespread advertising, company support, effective keywords, and etc. Those things are often learned from the company you join - but sidestep Passion and you reduce your chances for success dramatically.

It therefore follows that, if you have no Passion for the company and the products and services provided by that company, again, you won't attempt to do the work you are being taught.

Internet marketing work is typically not all that difficult or time consuming but it does take motivation caused by Passion to get you off and running with a sustained effort so that you won't stumble.

You have a great resource in the Internet search engines to search about the Internet Marketing industry for business opportunities, USE IT!

Your research should uncover a company that you like and have confidence in. It should be solid, founded on great principles, and easy to understand with great products and services that are sell-able for which you can have Passion. If you don't find it move on,
You can find the right opportunity containing the attributes identified above.

Comments like, well, that one sounds good and the compensation plan is excellent so I guess I'll start that business - does not sound like a decision based on anything near Passion. And remember when you hear that an Internet "guru" does that, don't be tempted, because as I said earlier they are experienced and can sell just about anything, without being Passionate about the company products and services.

Note: By the way it's your goal to get to the point where you can sell about anything online. That end skill and goal is a worthy one indeed.

Remember, there are other steps you must make before you step into Internet Marketing but if you don't first find the right company products and services to be passionate about, all of those other steps may just cause you a lot of frustration instead of bringing you great success.

Not being Passionate about a company and products and services that has market proof that it will sell is a pitfall you simply must avoid.

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2009-08-31T03:17:00.002+08:00

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A History On "Feed Mail Pro"

2009-08-18T15:56:00.000+08:00

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2009-07-25T11:52:00.002+08:00

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It will help u a lot in terms of notifying your blog subscribers on updates. :)

cherrio~!

2006-12-07T10:28:00.000+08:00

had a nice 4 hour lecture yesterday and was awed by the passionate art enthuasists... these were the artists that were discussed, gonna list them down just in case i forgot to write it down somewhere :D btw look up for them, maybe youll get inspired too :)

Lotte Reiniger
James Caliri
Norman Mclaren
Len Lye

.: Bangau :.

p.s. youll always be my inspiration :)

2006-12-05T00:59:00.000+08:00

once again i write what im feeling... if this blog had a mind of its own im sure itll have ways to counter my entries ;) im missing everything that i had in the past, the friends i had, the times i spent through sadness and happiness... the innocence that made me couldnt care less about the real world... in the end im all alone.

yes i have friends and a lady i love very much, yet i sit and think about the situation, when my friends grad and pursue their dreams, im sure separation is imminent... and itll be back to square one, alone again until i make new acquantaince... so in life there will always a time when we are alone... so might as well prepare for the worst :)

nowadays, when we make jokes and laugh at each others foolishness, i felt an emptiness in me... part of me is asking what is that all about? laugh and laugh and laugh and nothing gained. im trying to talk less, listen more and decide on the truth. i guess no more lame jokes on my side then... life is much much more than a hearty laugh...

.: Bangau :.

another thought~

2006-12-03T21:48:00.000+08:00

sometimes it occurs to me that i cant control everything i want... sometimes it cuts in deep, sometimes it doesnt hurt... i try to use a rational approach for every situation but most of the time it doesnt help much... irrational ones would often result in regret

ive read somewhere that it is hard to express how you really feel to someone whom you love, because you are more sensitive and much more fragile cause one would feel the other half would understand... i will try to understand myself better thus making it possible for the other half to understand me too :D

.: Bangau :.

p.s. and her surprise birthday party was a huge success :D thanks to all those involved :)

a song in my mind

2006-11-18T04:28:00.000+08:00

Garasi - Hilang

Dimanakah cinta sejati
Yang memberi ketenangan hati…
Sampai kapanku harus menanti
Kau pergi dan mungkin tak kan kembali..
Dan aku menangis dan aku terluka..

Bila..
Dan aku menangis dan aku terluka..
Bila…
Engkau menghilang…

Kau pergi dari ku tinggal kan ku
Lewati malam tanpa kasihmu
Ku rangkai kataKu rangkai nada
Yang ku ingin hanyalah cinta
Dan semua menghilang..
Dan semua menghilang..
Dan semua menghilang..

Semua karena cinta ku menangis
Semua karena cinta ku tertawa
Semua karena cinta…
Semua karena cinta…

Dan kau tinggalkan hanyalah luka
Dan semua menghilang..
Dan semua menghilang..
Dan semua menghilang..

Semua karena cinta ku menangis
Semua karena cinta ku tertawa
Semua karena cinta…
Semua karena cinta…

This songs been embedded in my mind ever since i heard it as a soundtrack in a movie, Garasi. I feel the lyrics inside me...

.: Bangau :.

a short entry

2006-11-18T04:13:00.000+08:00

it has been a poor entry rate by yours truly these past few months... feels like im drifting away from here... seems like i cant pen a paragraph that truly describe my feelings... i cant find the right words for them... if only i had an imaginary friend.. itll be a lot easier to say it out loud and probably itll make me feel better.

studys still the same.. slow pace, fast pace, it goes on and on and on... its like a wheel thats rotating... some ups and downs.. my relationship is just the same.. theres ups and downs, and thats the way itll be, always.

i guess time will tell... time will tell.

.: Bangau :.

self reflect ...

2005-12-31T10:22:00.000+08:00

what have you done... what have you not done that you should have done? whatever that should have been done will be done if u had the initiative to do it.. but no.. u let urself drown in ur own pity.. that the world have done you wrong and that you cant change anything... why do you feel this way? it is too deep this sorrow that sets in your heart?.. sometimes you lift up ur face and you see someone much much older and distraught staring back at you from the mirror... its like a dark memory that haunts you back from time to time, reminding you that you were lost once and that you will lose yoourself again and again.. and no matter what you do you will succumb to the darkness.. why cant you fight that feeling? why did you kneel and bow towards that feeling... get up and retaliate... but the strength and faith are gone from your heart... they say love can heal a broken heart, but a love lost will still leave a scar.

what do you do when what you desire is taken? it leaves you with emptiness .. theres nothing that you can say or do that can heal your heart... people say a broken heart can be healed as time goes by... but doesnt that hurt you much more when time standstill and you are trapped in it? sometimes you take the drastic action that will do more damage than repair... will you run away? and be deemed a coward? does a wise man stand in front of a rampaging bull? only a fool would do that.. or a brave soul. choose wisely they say and you will rejoice in your choices... choose blindly and be wary forever...

what can you do now? do you look and wait and lose what you have been holding dear or do something and still lose what you hold dear or do something and keep what you hold dear?

.: lost :.

Pythagoras

2005-12-18T07:45:00.000+08:00

Found this piece of article while doing research. Read it up yah!

Pythagoras also, in earlier times, advanced a similar view of human nature.

In 518 B.C. Pythagoras travelled west and during his journey reputedly had a significant interview with the prominent ruler Leon of Philus whilst both were attending some public Games. King Leon was most impressed by Pythagoras' range of knowledge and asked which of the arts he was most proficient in. Pythagoras replied that, rather than being proficient in any art, he regarded himself as being a philosopher. King Leon had never heard this term before and asked for an explanation.

This is the recorded reply:-

"Life, Prince Leon, may well be compared with these public Games for in the vast crowd assembled here some are attracted by the acquisition of gain, others are led on by the hopes and ambitions of fame and glory. But among them are a few who have come to observe and to understand all that passes here. It is the same with life. Some are influenced by the love of wealth while others are blindly led on by the mad fever for power and domination, but the finest type of man gives himself up to discovering the meaning and purpose of life itself. He seeks to uncover the secrets of nature. This is the man I call a philosopher for although no man is completely wise in all respects, he can love wisdom as the key to nature's secrets."

.: Bangau :.

afif amfi

2005-12-12T12:17:00.000+08:00

the first week of ramadhan brought a happy news for me :D my sis gave birth to a baby boy~ im now an uncle!! hes called afif amfi, afif being 'virtuous' and amfi? im not sure but my guess is that its a combination of his parents names, amran n fizah :) he sleeps a lot.. not sure why though and hungers for milk every now n then, and he poos often too!!

he has no signs of impairs, alhamdullilah and he looks cute, but then all babies are cute, but few maintain their cuteness until adulthood *ahem* :P so overall hes a healthy baby growing up in a world full of deceit, lies and evil but for anything bad theres good so no need to worry, he just have to make the right choices :)

and i for once held a baby in my arms and fed it, not with my milk of course, but with powdered milk! a unique type of calmness set in my heart and i now knew how it felt to be 'as peaceful as a baby'.

so heres the pics of him sleeping like a baby; hence the quote 'slept like a baby'.

.: sleepin :.

.: sleepin again :.

.: Bangau :.

a time to remember

2005-12-10T21:04:00.000+08:00

its been months since i last wrote something here.. i didnt have the spirit in me. but i guess i have to look forward and treasure the sweet experiences i had back then. i called it friendship but i dont feel it that way.. sometimes i go through the days by shutting her out but other days i have a longing in my heart. sounds like a soap opera dilemma yah? :)

niways i remembered this gathering that i had with irfan n zack some time ago. it was just a trip to irfan's house in Johore Bahru and just like the times we spent together (threesome, not in the sexual context mind u) it was loads of crappy fun. just like irfan once philosophied (not sure bout the exact spellin though) "the time u enjoyed wasting, is not wasted at all". its true! :D so after the trip to larkin where we break fast by tucking in to 30 sticks of 'satay jawa', we karaoked thru the nite and had 'nasi daging merah' for 'sahur'. we slept like babies afterwards.

the real adventure began on the way back to s'pore. we waited for the 'Causeway Link' bus which came after 45 mins and was told it was going a different way and that another bus was just behind. little did we know that 'just behind' was another 40 min wait. when the bus did came though, it was drifting round the corner at top speed and we waved our hands to signal our intention to board, but i guess it was just too fast to stop in time. the bus driver gave us a sorry look and sped off; the passengers on board staring at us and we stared back opened mouth... it was just like a slapstick movie scene :D so irfan's father sent us to Larkin interchange and over there we were introduced to the 'Bus Ride 666 - The Ride from Hell'. it was a long journey almost 80mins and we had to change bus after that. the most frustating thing was that we found out that the bus did actually stop near ifran's house! to think that we had spent hours waiting for it at another location... initially we were frustated, but it became the joke of the day! :) in the end we reached s'pore just an hour before break fast time.

.: zack n irfan [Bus 666] :.

.: me n zack :.

.: irfan n zack [Larkin] :.

.: Bangau :.

........

2005-09-19T21:04:00.000+08:00

i hope that i did the right thing... part of me shattered just to tell her that few sentences... i had been thinking for quite a while... i did whats best for her... even though at first it will break her heart... this im sure of... cos i know whats it like..

just hope that she wont hate me... i cant help being hated...

i think theres something seriously wrong with me... like theres something inside me thats burning and dying out... burning hot at times and dying off at some time... my emotions are not stable.. even though on the outside i look calm..

maybe she wont ever visit this page again... i wont blame her for that... but just to type this out, "dearest ana baizura.. im sorry if i hurt ur feelings... i didnt mean to toy around with ur feelings.. please forgive me.."

life at sunset...

2005-09-15T09:36:00.000+08:00

hmm exams are just around the corner.. and theres still assignments popping up :) my life is in a stand still.. im not sure where i stand though.. peculiar isnt it? some people say that u know when u need a break.. but the way im feelin rite now doesnt help with a break...

ive gone through a lot this first year in kl... maybe living almost on your on is just a tat different... im appreciating life more.. in ways i myself cant explain... its just these kind of things that make u go moody and all that...

my angel is gaining strength in her legs... shes fast recovering.. the constant dose of milk and calcium pills did the job for her :) am heppi for her..

Tinggalkan Satu Peluru - M.Nasir

Hidup semalam banyak mengajar
Kuingat-ingat tinggalkan satu peluru
Takut-takut kawan yang berganding bahu
Berkesudahan menjadi seteru
Mana tahu dah jadi hantu

Selagi genting belum datang mengetuk pintu
Siapakah yang kanan siapa pula yang kiri
Wayang dulu tak pernah reda
Hitam putih terus bertingkah
Helah menghelah mencuri mimpi

Di mana helang terbang ke situku tuju
Biar pun angin mengganas menusuk tubuh
Di mana biarpun ke pusar mentari ku pergi
Asalkan ku menang
Begitu juga kata-kata rindu dan cinta
Sehati sejiwa, hidup dan mati bersama

Dusta kini sudah lumrah
Hingga benar sukar diterima
Yang tewas tak pernah di puja

.: Life at Sunset :. [Putrajaya Bridge]

.: Bangau :.

another sad day..

2005-09-12T21:38:00.000+08:00

hmm... my car got broke into... and i lost my cd player~~ waaaaa i dont have the money to buy even a 2nd hand one.. i hope the person will meet a terrible death... really hope so.. die.. diee

well maybe its a retribution for the things that i have done.. just not my luck then... takde rezki.. hmmm but then stealing... taking something that someone worked hard for... pisses me off... demmit... maybe that person would get stuck in a mincing machine... and become minced meat..

my angel... shes recovering fast... she can walk now.. without crutches.. though her muscles are still kinda weak... i miss her... words cant describe it.. hmmmm

my house fone is blocked and suddenly the water supply is cut off.. what next? not the electricity pleasseee...

.: Bangau :.

another day~!!

2005-09-02T22:02:00.000+08:00

hmm been a while since my last entry.. well... celebrated merdeka at bandar melaka with my cousins... saw the fireworks.. but the main event was in ayer keroh.. ate a lot~!! kerang rebus, kerang bakar, sotong goreng tepung... that kind of seafood dishes :D yummy~~!!

the motel that we stayed in turned out to be the local 3 hour happy hour stay :D u know what im getting at.. ekekekke it was a new experience for us.. !!

my angel still cant walk without crutches.. been two weeks.. i miss her.. as long as shes recovering, im grateful :D mebbe she needs more rest, thats why the doc gave her a 6 week mc.. :D keep exercising and drinking milk yaa~~!!

.: Bangau :.

net's out again~

2005-08-28T16:15:00.000+08:00

been a while since i post anything... my nets out again.. this time due to overdue bills :D dunno why but seems like its hard to pay bills... hmm

my angels recovering fast, though she stills needs crutches to move around, and she cant balance both feet on the ground without feeling pain. hmmmm hoping she'll get well soon enuff~~ :D

-: me n cipet in the lift of our rented apartment :-

broken heart...

2005-08-22T03:28:00.000+08:00

i broke her heart... i cant believe what i did.. it was so insensitive of me... sometimes i hate this habit i have... to say out loud before thinking.. my worst habit.. i knew it broke her heart even if she doesnt show it... i dont know what i can do to make it up to her...

i feel down... cant help feeling bad... i hate breaking someone's heart, more so an angel's heart...

d-n

sadness~!

2005-08-19T10:07:00.000+08:00

August 18th is a sad day for me... my uncle passed away at a young age leaving behind two small kids and a housewife.. the pain of knowing your loved one will never return.. its hard to accept.. on the way to the funeral, i got a phonecall... a friend of mine told me that my angel met with an accident... and shes in hospital... i prayed hard for her safety.. since most accidents that involved trailers were always fatal...

visited her last nite... shes okay 'cept for a broken pelvis *erk* and a cut on the right side of the head.. hmm she's strong.. could even laugh through the whole ordeal.. im grateful thats shes safe.. very, very grateful.. hmmm

Padi - Menunggu Sebuah Jawaban

Aku tak bisa luluhkan hatimu
Dan aku tak bisa menyentuh cintamu
Seiring jejak kakiku bergetar
Aku tak terpagut oleh cintamu

Menelusup hariku dengan harapan
Namun kau masih terdiam membisu

Sepenuhnya aku ingin memelukmu
Mendekap penuh harapan tuk mencintaimu
Setulusnya aku akan terus menunggu
Menanti sebuah jawaban tuk memilikimu

Betapa pilunya rindu menusuk jiwaku
Semoga kau tau isi hatiku
Dan seiring waktu yg terus berputar
Aku masih terhanyut dalam mimpiku

.: Bangau :.

hepi~!!

2005-08-17T01:59:00.000+08:00

have to admit... these last few days had been wonderful ( 'cept for the neverending assignments ) had serious talks with my angel which always ended up in me making stupid jokes... so in the end it wasnt serious :P love the way she tells a story... the way she "mmm tu laa" and "tak-delah" makes me go bonkers~!!

p.s. zack komik ape citer? jeng3

.: Bangau :.

hmm...

2005-08-05T08:37:00.000+08:00

well in a few minutes im off to my kampung~! wooo my family's waiting.. hope i can reach there safely.. insyallah.. well for once i get to forget about the assignments... but then, im still bringing my assignments along.. contradicting huh? :P

my angel.. its a habit of mine that i personally want to change... my deepest regret if it causes pain to you... if ur reading this... im really sorry :(

.: Bangau :.

calmy calmy nite...

2005-08-01T08:28:00.000+08:00

after some work in the day, met up with her for dinner/supper... :) this time she wore *pink*~! she looked liked an angel in the seat.. had trouble concentrating on the road... :P

there was this traffic light and it was red... so a brief stop then.. and this car to the left... the guys were staring at her and for the first time i felt jealous... well cant do much though... they have the right to stare... :P

so the few hours were spent on trying to finish the humongous 'naan' bread while watching a slow movie on cable tv... 'wolf'. found out some things bout her... ;>

im elated~!

.: Bangau :.

just post it :D

2005-07-30T14:14:00.000+08:00

http://news-service.stanford.edu/news/2005/june15/jobs-061505.html

-juz real life experience talk.. nice to read, good to feel, hard to forget :D doesnt rhyme.. sigh...

well seems like im stuck at home on a saturday... lalala hmm the weathers hot... and the air is superbly dry... when i woke up in the morning these last few days, whenever i spit theres blood... dunno why.. must be the hot climate... :D niways we re frens now.. still frens cos its too early to get serious.. shes got her own issues and i got mine.. we kinda pf talk each other bout it.. so it clarifies a lot of things :) im heppi.. will wait for her whenever she feels ready.. :D

good afternoon hot climate~!

.: Bangau :.

heppy day

2005-07-28T07:05:00.000+08:00

ehehehe... well yersterday i went out with her... :D cant say much though... was mesmerized throughout the whole deal...every little thing that she did had gentleness in it.. and i forgot to wear cologne.. hmm luckily the flies at the food center went for her instead, shes sweet to them, shes sweet to me too :)

talked about most of the things that were supposed to talk about... i like her laughter, it had a little touch of mischief in it :P well there were the silent pauses in between... when we had no idea what more to talk about and then just stare each other down :P it was a really enjoyable experience for me.. hope she feels the same way too :)

im feeling heppy :D

.: Bangau :.

emotional admins

2005-07-26T17:14:00.000+08:00

the trip planned for our majoring class was cancelled in a rush..... even outings these days are controlled by the mere presence of politricks. It was cancelled due to the low support ... since the actual outing was decided at 100 bucks and suddenly it was 230!! too much cost for half of the class.. niways... it was made compulsory and all hell broke loose.. there were many demands of explanation...

in the end it was cancelled... cant say whether its good or bad.. since i dont have a say aniways :D well.. sometimes its good not to be involved in politricks.... :)

i looked for her this morning.. maybe she didnt attend the morning session.. well, somethings flourishing in my heart :D cant say what is it though... ekekeke

.: Bangau :.

elated

2005-07-26T02:54:00.000+08:00

well... today was submission day... had a 2 hr sleep in the last two days... thought of going back to sleep but fate had better plans :D met up with her... and off we go for a night out.. juz me, her and him :) its the first time i went out with her.. and it had a calming effect... whenever i look at her it just takes away the stress i had earlier... she must have some kind of aromatherapic effect :D must be the perfume she used ...

juz cant get enuff of her.. hmm seems like eternity to get to talk to her... im usually tight lipped around her.. ekekeke niways.. its nice to have a companion thats in your heart... well shes in my heart but im not sure whether its the same way for her... time will tell.. so im taking a nap.. tomorow im gonna take two quizes.. dun have the energy to read anymore... goodnite world .. and good nite to u my angel.. :D

.: Bangau :.

communist anarchism

2005-07-24T18:14:00.000+08:00

What is Communist Anarchism?

"But you yourself know very well what you want, and so does your neighbor.You want to be well and healthy; you want to be free, to serve no master,to crawl and humiliate yourself before no man; you want to have well-being for yourself, your family, and those near and dear to you. And not to be harassed and worried by the fear of tomorrow.You may feel sure that every one else wants the same thing.

So the whole matter seems to stand this way: *You* want health, liberty, and well-being.Everyone is like yourself in this respect.Therefore we all seek the same thing in life.Then why should we not all seek it together, by joint effort, helping each other in it?Why should we cheat and rob, kill and murder each other, if we all seek the same thing? Aren't *you* entitled to the things you want as well as the next man? Or is it that we can secure our health, liberty, and well-being better by fighting and slaughtering each other? Or because there is no other way? Let us look into this.

Does it not stand to reason that if we all want the same thing in life, if we have the same aim, then our *interests* must also be the same? In that case we should live like brothers, in peace and friendship; we should be good to each other, and help each other all we can. But you know it is not at all that way in life. You know that we do not live like brothers. You know that the world is full of strife and war, of misery, injustice, and wrong, of crime, poverty, and oppression. Why is it that way then? It is because, though we all have the same aim in life, our *interests are different*. It is this that makes all the trouble in the world. Just think it over yourself. Suppose you want to get a pair of shoes or a hat. You go into the store and you try to buy what you need as reasonably and cheaply as you can. That is *your* interest. But the store-keeper's interest is to sell it to you as dearly as he can, because then his *profit* will be greater.

That is because everything in the life we live is built on making a profit, one way or another. We live in a *system of profit-making*. Now, it is plain that if we have to make profits out of each other, then our interests cannot be the same. They must be different and often opposed to each other."

-Alexander Berkman

.: Bangau :.

sometimes...

2005-07-23T14:01:00.000+08:00

i cant live the way i live now.. im too self centered; its like.. off i go to campus, attend some lectures, do some practicals, chill out on weekends... is that it? thats what i thought.. how come i wasnt concerned bout the recent bombings in London, the "flying kingdom" and such issues. yes i knew bout those things.. read them in the news.. but then its just that.. didnt do anything at all, i feel useless, its like im living without a real purpose...

gotta be more sympathetic.. i gotta feel more.. care more.. give more.. this is my resolution. got to work on this.. seems pathetic to live in your own cosy world while others are suffering.. hope that all will come to good.. hmm dunno why im more emotional these days.... must be the lonely nights : well..

.: Bangau :.

thoughts

2005-07-19T00:24:00.000+08:00

as i sit alone in my dark room, the thought of losing the closest people in my life send a weakening feeling thru my body.. what will happen then? how will i react to the situation? im not so sure right now... cant seem to shake the uncomfortable feeling off.. will i be as strong willed as some people are, just like a father who lost his 4 children to the recent tsunami or the photographer who lost his whole family. i respect such people, they are gritty and have absolute determination and positiveness... sometimes its easier to run away rather than facing the day when it arrives...

i remembered the 1st ambition i had when i was young; to be an author... the desire to write novels or short stories is still burning in me and sometimes i write some love story which is more like a bollywood movie rather than a real life story :D well i guess i have to be content with creating posts on this blogger.. :P

this chorus from "Tiada Lagi" by Amy Search keep playing thru my mind...

Tiada Lagi (No More)

tiada lagi yang kuharapkan, tiada lagi yang ku impikan
biar aku sendiri tanpa dirimu...

tiada lagi kata cintaku, takkan lagi ku bersamamu
biar ku simpan semua kenanganku bersamamu...

its full of sorrow and filled with heart wrenching words... im exaggerating i think :D
however it really touches my heart :P whats more its sung by the beautiful voice of amy :) well...

.: Bangau :.

too high a price

2005-07-18T02:35:00.000+08:00

ate at a "mamak" stall in the neighbourhood and was shocked at the prices... one fren which ate a fried drumstick with plain rice and a little gravy was charged 4.70!!! it was so shocking! another fren had "teh o lychee" was charged 3.50!! another fren had "iced neslo" and was charged 2.50! we decided to complain to the organisation that controls prices... they will pay for charging too much.

i hope that they will look into this matter and thus bring down the price... if not the visit would be the last : and we will spread the word to others, that is for sure...

.: Bangau :.

net's back~!

2005-07-14T18:44:00.000+08:00

weeee at last i got back the internet connection that i lost :D im heppi for the net now... though tomorrow is my submission day and im struggling to finish up my werks :(

i missed the net .. hmm... and now that i got it back im gonna treasure it more, much much more :)

well todays entry is juz short... gotta cool down the adrenaline rush that i got.. ekeke..
found out the gal's name.. it is sweet.. ana byzura's gonna be stuck in my head ... at least until shes taken :P *shucks* and im still hoping something will pop out.. but then if i dont do anything nothing's gonna pop up... hmm

.: Bangau :.

internet obsessed

2005-07-06T12:41:00.000+08:00

gotta admit it.. im obsessed with the net.. now that ive moved house, the internet connection's gone :( im using a frens pc in the hostel juz to check emails and stuffz; had enuff time so i updated my blog..

its gonna be hectic this week, i got 3 submissions to go... juz finished presenting though :) it went well cept' for minor things...

suddenly i feel like im in love again... maybe its a crush but hey maybe its true love :D anyways she's cute and i havent had the guts to get near her... ekekeke.. "malu tak bertempat" :P niways if all goes well something will pop out :D

.: Bangau :.

goodbye...

2005-07-01T20:50:00.000+08:00

Today's gonna be the last day im in this rented house. well, everything will come to an end.. :( but hey im looking 4ward to the new house which is just opposite of my current block :D hehehe

Im not gonna miss it much but memories in the house with *u* shall never be forgotten. Well i got some more loading and unloading to do... this time my backbone will crack... i gotta eat more bananas! they are super energy bars for me :) need them... need them... wahahhaha :P

So till i get my internet connection again, a heartwarming farewell to all :D

.: Bangau :.

webpagesthatsuck

deadbeat

2005-06-30T23:57:00.001+08:00

Fuhhh today was a very tiring day... the owner of the house i rented wanted it back this saturday.. had a crazy afternoon of loading/unloading cargo.. im gonna break my backbone for sure.. some of the stuff were too heavy for me.. im underweight btw :P so everything that i carried sucked out all of my energy...

gotta get some sleep ... later on at 3 am im gonna carry more stuff.. well sure am going to miss class tomorrow.. hmmm :D sometimes moving house aint so bad at all... :P

: Bangau :

the little things

2005-06-29T21:06:00.000+08:00

well what can i say? seems like the day juz pass me by... had fun though... went to frens' class and had a good time creating havoc with them... time sure do pass by quickly when ur having fun.. well im such a sucker for gals.. i dunno why :D maybe time will change that~! :P i think my posts are getting more laid back... sigh

: Bangau :

juz a thought

2005-06-28T20:16:00.000+08:00

Sometimes when u felt down u juz lose urself in the sofa and wake up feeling lively again. i wish it was that easy for me but it seems that i juz cant get the niggling feeling out of me. i juz cant really say whats the feeling like though, its like ur sitting in an airplane and u feel that somehow one of the wings would crack and down u go...

i tried to keep that feeling deep down but when it rises, i juz cant control it. there are issues running in my head right now and here i am typing away when tons of assignments are waiting to be attended to. anyways the lecture i went few hours before was interesting enuff :) i think a revolution is coming round in the ways of doing things in groupwork. at least that was what i foresee; but who knows, it can be true and not so true after all :(

well, at least for now my heart is gonna be okay. but if that *tsk* feeling comes back again, ill be laying down and hope tomorrow appears pleasantly.

: Bangau :